This week I'm beginning to see how strenuous my schedule is. Two AP classes, Graphic Design Editor for the yearbook, Cheerleader, and Graphic Communications Specialist Intern. It's a lot. It's all very good, and fitting for me. I work well when I have a lot to juggle. Things get done when there's no time to procrastinate. But I feel the stress when I look at a neglected blog, or have a conversation with someone I haven't seen in two weeks. I'm such a movie buff, and I think I watched the first movie tonight, that I've watched in weeks. I can't live this way forever, but I see no cause to complain right now. I'll be glad for it later, and so I'm glad for it now.
Concerning recent events, Ben and I broke up on Sunday night. I explained as well as I could to him. I'm at peace with it, and hope it was the best thing for both of us, but honestly these things are never just fine. Let it be known I really hate being "on the market". I'm really just not interested. I'm not available, even if I'm not taken. This game of hooking up and breaking up, which seems so normal at high school, is so unhealthy for me. So I've told those who have asked the last four days "no thanks, but it's nice you thought of me." I'm nothing they want, even if they think I am. And I'm just not interested at all. And furthermore how subtle or sensitive is it to ask within one week of me breaking up? Ah well, maybe they'll learn in time. Can I just say I'm reserved for ...?Incase it's too small to read, the comic says, "Right now I'm on a man diet. no more boyfriends until I lose 20 pounds." lol. Actually I don't want to lose weight...anyway.
That's it. I'm busy. I'm single. I'm fine. I wish I were more tactful. It's my blog though.
