It's amazing working at Brotherhood. I like that my days are filled, and I feel responsible and independent. I love having my evenings and weekends free. I love that my creativity has a productive outlet. I love that I work with dad and C.Ray; both pop in on me at all hours during the day, just to say hi.
I really like Benjamin. I like that we do fun things. We're not boring, and we're not romantic. A little too much too soon perhaps...I don't know. I like that we go to shows, and take walks downtown (twice this week!). I love that Hope and Angelica can hang with us. The soundtrack that plays in the background of our little courtship is fantastic, and makes me so happy.
I don't know where I'm headed, or what I'm off to do, but my parents have just reiterated how much faith they have in me. I'll do what I was made to do, and doing it will satisfy the desires of my heart.
I'm finally excited and passionate again. This summer will be beautiful, and whatever comes will be oppertunity to live abundantly, blessing and loving others. Life is beautiful. At least tonight, I say it...and it's not about knowing it, I feel it. I hate being logical and realistic, and down-to-earth all the time. Sometimes...embracing the positive emotion is so much more satisfying.
I can do it. I'll make it. It will be lovely.
I have more thoughts...but they're mostly deep thoughts concerning God. I'm human. It's a quarter to 1...
good night.
